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She would tell you it is wrong
She shouldn't have done it all along
But now she's dead and you can't see
How much she really meant to me
If she could she would choose life
If only she didn't grab that knife
But she had so many things and words
But now she's dead and she can't be heard
And when she's lying on the floor
She hears everyone calling her a whore
She hears them calling her, cutter-slut! Now she wishes she wouldn't cut.
She wishes she could prove them wrong
But now that dream sounds far too long
She made the choice and now she will loose
She wishes that she could choose..
AND...
She would tell you it is wrong
She shouldn't have done it all along
But now she's dead and you can't see
How much she really meant to me
As she lies bleeding on the floor
She promised she would do no more
Harm to herself she really tried
But even she knew that she had lied
She wants to get up and fix it all
But there is no one left for her to call.
And now she wishes that she didn't cut
She wishes she could prove them wrong
But now that dream sounds far too long.
And now she's in heaven with love and lost. What if I wouldn't cut.
Want you back
Hey, boy you never had much gameSo I needed to upgradeSo I went and walked away-way-wayNow I seen you been hanging outWith that other girl in townLooking like a pair of clowns-clowns-clowns
Remember all the things that you and I did firstAnd now you're doing them with herRemember all the things that you and I did firstYou got me got me like thisAnd now you're taking her to every restaurantAnd everywhere we went, come on!And now you're taking her to every restaurantYou got me got me like this
Boy you can say anything you wannaI don't give a sh, no one else can have youI want you back, I want you backWant want you, want you backI broke it off thinking you'd be cryingNow I feel like sh looking at you flyingI want you back, I want you backWant want you, want you back
Please, this ain't even jealousyShe ain't got a thing on meTryna rock them ugly jeans-jeans-jeansYou clearly didn't think this throughIf what I've been told is trueYou'll be crawling back like boo-hoo-hoo
Remember all the things that you and I did firstAnd now you're doing them with herRemember all the things that you and I did firstYou got me got me like this like this
Remember all the things that you and I did firstAnd now you're doing them with herRemember all the things that you and I did firstYou got me got me like thisAnd now you're taking her to every restaurantAnd everywhere we went, come on!And now you're taking her to every restaurantYou got me got me like this
Boy you can say anything you wannaI don't give a sh, no one else can have youI want you back, I want you backWant want you, want you backI broke it off thinking you'd be cryingNow I feel like sh looking at you flyingI want you back, I want you backWant want you, want you back
Please, this ain't even jealousyShe ain't got a thing on meTryna rock them ugly jeans-jeans-jeansYou clearly didn't think this throughIf what I've been told is trueYou'll be crawling back like boo-hoo-hoo
Remember all the things that you and I did firstAnd now you're doing them with herRemember all the things that you and I did firstYou got me got me like this like this
And now you're taking her to every restaurant
And everywhere we went, come on! And now you're taking her to every restaurant
You got me got me like this
Boy you can say anything you wannaI don't give a sh, no one else can have youI want you back, I want you backWant want you, want you backI broke it off thinking you'd be cryingNow I feel like sh looking at you flyingI want you back, I want you backWant want you, want you back
Oooh, oooh, I thought you'd still be mineWhen I kissed you goodbye uh-oh uh-ohOooh, oooh, and you might be with herBut I still had you first uh-oh uh-oh
Yo,Remember all the things that you and I did firstAnd now you're doing them with herRemember all the things that you and I did firstYou got me got me like this
Boy you can say anything you wannaI don't give a sh, no one else can have youI want you back, I want you backWant want you, want you backI broke it off thinking you'd be cryingNow I feel like sh looking at you flyingI want you back, I want you backWant want you, want you back
Boy you can say anything you wannaI don't give a sh, no one else can have youI want you back, I want you backWant want you, want you backI broke it off thinking you'd be cryingNow I feel like sh looking at you flyingI want you back, I want you backWant want you, want you back
Oooh, oooh, I thought you'd still be mineWhen I kissed you goodbye uh-oh uh-ohOooh, oooh, and you might be with herBut I still had you first uh-oh uh-oh
Yo,Remember all the things that you and I did firstAnd now you're doing them with herRemember all the things that you and I did firstYou got me got me like this
Boy you can say anything you wannaI don't give a sh, no one else can have youI want you back, I want you backWant want you, want you backI broke it off thinking you'd be cryingNow I feel like sh looking at you flyingI want you back, I want you backWant want you, want you back
Fanfic
Me and El are at backstage now. El is looking at her phone with her sunglasses on. I know she’s sad now. 20 mins after that, I can hear all the fans are screaming. It means, One Direction gonna leave now. I see Niall is searching for me. I get up and raise my hand, he comes to me and he give me a quick hug. Louis is talking Harry, suddenly Eleanor puts her phone in her pocket and runs to Louis. Eleanor quickly hug Louis. Me and Niall are looking at them. It’s like Eleanor is crying. Louis rubs Eleanor’s back slowly and he whispers something in her ears. Eleanor hugs him even tighter.
Niall: What’s up with Eleanor? She’s crying?
Harry: Yeah, what happened?
Me: Just now, when we’re about to head here at the backstage, got this 1 girl said some nasty things to her. Something she doesn’t deserve Louis, she’s ugly and all.
Harry: and you guys had a fight with that girl??! :O
Me: No no. El just put his head down and I don’t know what to do. So yeah. That’s why she’s crying on Louis, I think….
Zayn: Guys, we gotta go. Our limo is here.
Harry shouts at Louis: Lou, come on. Let’s go back, our limo is here.
—Louis and El are still hugging. El pulls her head back, Louis wipes away her tears and they walk to us, holding hands. When Niall sees that, he looks at me and I smirks at him. He slowly interwine his fingers with mine. We all walk out from the backstage and head to our limo, outside the mall. I can hear the directioners’ heart, breaking when me and Niall walks out, holding hands to the limo.
Louis to the limo driver: Can you take us to the Milkshake City?
Driver: Sure.
Louis: Thank you.
Niall: Yayyyy Milkshake Cityyyy!!!
Harry: Oh yeahhhh!!!! ;D
An hour later…
Our limo stops. We’re now in front of the Milkshake City.
Me: I think, I’ll just stay in the car.
Niall: Okay princess. I’ll buy something for you :)
Harry: Yeah, I’m tired. I don’t feel like going out of this car. Louis, yaknw what I like right? Buy for me?
Louis: Okay. *Louis and El walks out from the car*
Liam: Zayn, you coming or not?
Zayn: Nahhh, I’ll just stay here with (Y/n) and Harry :)
Liam: Okay. *Liam gets out*
Niall: I’ll be back, princess. *Kisses on my cheek and he gets out*
I pull my head back and I close my eyes. Harry is sitting beside me, playing with his phone. Zayn is kinda far away from our seats.
Me: I think I’m gonna die. I’m sooo tireddddd. *I put my head on Harry’s shoulder and I close my eyes*
Harry: You went shopping with Eleanor. Me, the lads, got to sign hundreds and hundreds and hundredssss people’s album cover.
Me: Hehehehe, okay you win Harry!
—Zayn gets up from his place and sits next to me. Harry and I just look at him. Suddenly, Harry says: Zayn, I know what actually happened between you and (y/n), yesterday…. in your room….. bed….
Zayn: Wh-what?!?! Did you see us-
I cuts off: I told him.
Zayn: Why you told him?! *mad face* Yaknw he’s going to tell Niall bout this!
Harry: I won’t. But please, don’t do that to (y/n) anymore. Can you please, at least, respect her? She’s 15 and Niall’s girlfriend.
Zayn: I can’t control myself! Just look at her, she’s very……. Flawless! Everything about her…. is so…. attractive!
Harry: But, she belongs to Niall. and fyi, Niall is your bestfriend. Our bestfriend.
Zayn: I know that, Harry.
Harry: Leave (y/n) alone.
Me: and I believe that one day, you’ll found your true love Zayn.
Zayn: and if it’s not you, that is not my true love.
Harry: Zayn, you better shut the fvck up. *Harry kinda looks a bit pissed off* You want me to punch you in the face, bro?
Zayn: Oh shut up, Harry. I know you’re also in love with (y/n). But, you’re covering it up. You don’t want to show it. Oh come on Harry! Can you just stop pretending, now???
Harry: I USED to like her. and I love my friend, Niall. and I love (y/n) too. If they both happy, I’m happy too. I don’t, just, kiss someone’s girlfriend or whatsoever!
Me: Zayn, you can stop now. Either you stop talking now or I won’t talk to you till forever. Go back to your seat, I don’t wanna see your face.
Harry: and Zayn, if you ever do that thing to (y/n) again. You’ll get it from me.
Zayn: Whatever, Harry.
Me: Shut up guys. I’m trying to sleep here.
—I close my eyes and I fall asleep on Harry’s shoulder.
I feel someone’s pulling my head and put my head on his shoulder. I open my eyes, and my head is on Niall’s shoulder. I look at Niall and he’s smiling. I adjust my head and buried it in Niall’s neck. Niall kiss my forehead and I hold his arms. I look at Harry, he is still playing with his phone. I look at Zayn, he’s holding a milkshake and I can see that Zayn is in the jealous mood. I take out my phone from my handbag and text Harry. I know Harry is just next to me, but…. I don’t want Niall to…. yaknw, jealous.
Me: Look at Zayn’s face. He just can’t stop staring at me and Niall. Harry, help me! :O
—Niall is sleeping with his earplug. I look at Harry, and he looks at me. Harry turns his head to have a look at Zayn. Zayn look down, right, left. Harry is texting me back.
Harry: Hahahahaha, jealousy strikes! Yeah!!! xD
Me: Hahahahaha, yeah man xD
Harry’s P.O.V
I can accept the fact now that me and (Y/n) are just bestfriends. Not more than that. (Y/n) is getting closer to me now. Almost every night we text each other. Eventho, I’m downstairs watching tv and she’s upstairs in the room. I have to keep my eyes on Zayn right now. I don’t want him to kiss (Y/n) again. Even I didn’t get a chance to kiss (Y/n). This is so unfair! Just now, while the boys are in the Milkshake City and me, Zayn and (Y/n) are in the car, (Y/n) put her head on my shoulder. It’s kinda turn me on. But I act like everything is cool. I kept scrolling my twitter mentions. I don’t even read it. That time, I just feel that I want to pull her chin and put her face closer to my face and start making out with her. Stupid Zayn! Why is he in the car?! I warned Zayn just now. Seriously, if he kiss (y/n) againnn after this. I’m sooo gonna break his nose! (Y/n) fell asleep on my shoulder. About 15 mins after that, the lads came back in the car. I kept scrolling my twitter mentions on my phone. When Niall came in, I just act like a cool person. Niall looked at me and smiled. Oh okay, he’s not mad at me. And he transferred (Y/n)’s head from my shoulder to his. Oh god! I want (y/n).
Zayn’s P.O.V
So, Harry knew about me and (y/n) kissed yesterday. He warned me to not do that again. I can’t stand looking at (Y/n), laying down her head on Harry’s shoulder. I know Harry likes it. I can see it by Harry’s face. When Niall came in, he slowly pulled (y/n)’s head and put it on his shoulder. I love the way (y/n)’s looks when she’s sleeping. Niall is so lucky got to sleep with her at night. My goodness, (y/n), You’re killing me!! I want you! Just you! Not anyone else!
half and hour later…
Your P.O.V
We finally reach to the Stylinson apartment. Niall is going upstairs, but I want to watch tv. He said that he want to take a nap. I give him my handbag and he brings it upstairs. I sit next to Harry. El and Louis is in the room. Liam went to Danielle’s dance rehearsals place just now. Zayn sits at the another couch. Harry is switching the channels. I take his phone, he looks at me and he smiles. It means that he’s giving the permission to look at his phone. I unlock his phone and our text conversation appears. I think, Harry likes to re-read our conversations. He puts my name as “(Y/n) cutie”. I don’t know how my picture that Niall took when me and Niall on a plane to Ireland, is in Harry’s phone. Harry set that picture as my contact picture.
Me: Harry, change my picture please? I look like a retarded person in this picture.
Harry: But, that’s the only picture of you that I have in my phone :O
Me: Well, take a new one then? Now.
Harry: Gimme that. *He takes his phone and start to adjusting the position*
Me: Wait, let me fix myself first. *I pull hair down, both sides. I hold my two legs and stick my tongue out* Okay, now!
Harry: Okay, 1…. 2…. Seven! *He snaps it* Okay another one. This time… Can you please smile like a normal person? -.-
Me: Hehehehehe :3 Fine! *I put down my legs and smiles like a normal person* Like this? *Smiling*
Harry: Okay stay! 1…. 2….. five! *He snaps it* Okay done :) Okay, now…. I just need to set it as ur contact picture.
—Zayn is staring at us. When I look at him, he looks back at the tv. I pretend that I didn’t see him.
Harry: Check your twitter. I tweet something bout you :D
Me: Wait! *Takes out my phone and log on to twitter* Awwhhh :’D So sweet of youuuu, Styles! :’)
@Harry_Styles: ” Chilling out w my lil sister, @y/t/n :) ‘URLThePhotoHeTookJustNow’ “
Me: Now, it’s my turn. Smile, styles! :)
Harry: *Smiles while holding his phone in his hand* Okay? :D
Me: Okay done. Now…. tweet time!
1 min later…
Me: I tweeted it already :)
@Y/T/N: ” My brother, @Harry_Styles says Hi! :) ‘URLThePhotoYouTookJustNow’ “
Harry: I look sooo handsome in this picture :P
Me: Oh vain!!!!! xD
—Zayn is watching tv. Me and Harry are chit-chatting, talks about everything.
I’m starting to get bored. So, I get up from the couch leaving Zayn and Harry watching tv. I get upstairs and go in to Niall’s room. He’s sleeping. It’s 7:15PM. I take my towel and off to shower.
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When you walks out from the bathroom, Niall is already in his towel. He’s checking his phone, standing at the corner of the bed. Before Niall gets in to the shower, he pulls my tower, but I hold it so that it won’t fall down. I slap Niall’s but and he’s dancing while he’s walking in the bathroom. I put on my clothes and Niall is the shower. My phone vibrates cos there’s a message coming in. I unlock my phone and Harry’s name appears.
Harry: Danielle and Liam bought us McD for dinner. They even bought a new DVD just now. So tonight, movie night! :D
I text him back: Yayyy McD for Dinner :’) I’ll come down later. Really??! Yayyyy movie night!!! :D
Harry: Meet you later, byeeeee X
Me: Yeah! Byeee :) X
—I comb my hair and do a fishtail braid. Niall walks out from the bathroom. He’s humming, I don’t know what song. He puts his sweatpants and shirt on. I wait for Niall to get change so that we’ll go downstairs together. After he finish putting on his clothes, we walk downstairs.
I can hear Liam, Zayn, Louis, Harry, El and Danielle’s laugh coming from the kitchen. I walk in and Niall follow me from behind. Harry pass me 2 burgers. I pass it to Niall, another one I take it. We eat, talk, laugh and etc.
We’re done with our dinner. Me, El and Dani clean up the kitchen and the lads are sitting in front of the tv now. Me, El and Dani walk out from the kitchen and head to the lads.
Louis: Guys…. and girls. Let’s play truth or dare!! ;D
Harry: Nowwww? I thought we’re watching the movie!! :O
Liam: I’m okay with it! :D
Niall: Count me in!!!
Zayn: Yeahhhh!!!
El: I’m fine with it :D
Dani: Me too :)
Me: Well, let’s play then? :)
Louis: Okay! So, everyone! Let’s sits on the floor and and make a circle.
*We all gets down from the couch and sits on the floor. I sit between Niall and Eleanor*
Louis: Okay, here we go. *Holding a bottle* Okay, this one, is a bit different. I’ll spin this bottle, and when the bottle points to someone, I gotta give him/her a peck on his/her lips. And then, The one I peck my lips on will spin the bottle and do the same thing. Okay, clear?
We All: CLEAR!!!!
Louis spins the bottle. All of us are looking at the bottle and wait for it to stop.
Louis: Oh Harry! :D
Harry: Oh god! -.-
*Louis give a peck on Harry’s lips. Now, Harry is spinning the bottle*
Harry: Errr… I’m sorry, Niall…. May I? :s *the bottle stops and pointing at me*
Niall: Oh sure :) Nvrmind! :)
*Since Harry is a bit far away from me, he crawls to me and he give me a peck on my lips. I smile and spins the bottle*
Louis: Yayyyy Zaynnnnn!!! :D
*I can see Zayn is happy now. I look at Harry and Harry is holding back his hand. I crawls to Zayn and give a peck on Zayn’s lips. It’s a quick one. Like 2 secs only. Then, I get back to my place. Zayn spins the bottle and the bottle points to…*
Liam: Yayyyy Ziall !!! :D
Niall: Come on, Zayn! :P
Zayn: Hahahahaha, I’m coming Niall :P *He pecks on Niall’s lips*
Niall: Nowwww, it’s myyyy turrrnnnnn :3 *He spins the bottle and it points to….*
El: This is not faaaaiiiirrr!!!
Me: It still counts, El :P
Niall: Come here baby ;) *Niall pull me closer to his face and he start to sucking my lower lip.*
Zayn: Niall, just a peck! -.-
Niall: I don’t care. *Niall kiss me and it’s turning into a french kiss. I close my eyes and we’re making out in front of the boys and girls. I pull away.*
Me: I’m sorry, Niall. But….. The game? Hehe :3
Niall: Ughhh!!!
—I spin the bottle and it points to Eleanor.
Eleanor: Yayyyy!!! :D
*I give a peck on El’s lips.
Louis: That’s not faiiirrrr!!!! Oh oh, Sorry El :P Okay now, change the rules! Now, it’s not a peck anymore. You must at least kiss your partner like… 20 seconds!
Dani: Oh my goodness, Louis -.-
El: Okay okay, so I’m gonna spin this bottle now. *She spin it and it points to Louis!!!*
Louis: Awwhhhh baby :’) We are sooooooo meant to be together :D *The kiss and Harry counts.*
Louis: Okay nowww, it’s myyy turnnnn! *Louis spins it and…..* Oh Zaynnnnn!!! :D
Zayn: Oh noooo -.- *They just stay on each other lips for 20 secs* Kay now, it’s my turnnnn!!!! *He spin it and it points to…*
Harry: Ahhh noooo xD
Zayn: Aahhhh yesss :P *Zayn put his lips on Harry’s. Louis counting*
Harry: Okay, now my turnnnn…. *He spin it and it points to….*
Eleanor: AGAAAAINNNNN??? Seriously guysssssss??? -.-
Me: Can I throw this bottle now? Like now now NOW -.-
Niall: Nvrmind princess, it’s just a game :) Go ahead :)
Me: I love you so much, Niall. Remember that! :O
Niall: and I love you so much too! :)
Harry: Sorry Nialler. Blame Louis on this stupid game -.- *Harry slowly crawls to me.* Ready?
Me: Yeah, sure :)
Harry: Sorry, Niall. *Harry’s lips slowly meets mine.*
Oh god. Harry have a soft lips. I’m closing my eyes and I don’t know what’s happening. I can’t help it, but….. I’m moving my lips, replying Harry’s kiss. Harry is a good kisser. Harry pulls my chin and we’re really enjoy doing this. Suddenly, Harry pulls away. I open my eyes and I look at Niall. I know Niall is hurting, but he’s just smiling. So, I kiss him and we’re making out for the second time. Niall push me on the floor without breaking the kiss. I can feel Niall is smiling when we’re kissing. Yeah, Niall is a good kisser. He’s better than Harry. Better than anyone else :)
Louis: I think…… we can go watch the movie now. and Niall, you can stop now -.-
*We don’t care what Louis said to us. We’re still kissing. I’m laying on the floor and Niall is on top of me. Niall explores my mouth. My tongue touches Niall’s braces. Niall didn’t leave a single spot in my mouth that is not been touched by him. I can feel his heartbeat on my chest. Niall break the kiss and kiss my neck. He whispers in my ear: I love you, princess.
Zayn: Guys, go to your room please -.- We’re trying to watch movie here.
to be continued…
Om One Directions Tour buss stannade utanför mitt hus..
Fattar inte hur man kan hata de? De är mitt liv.
TREKANTEN
SummerBreaaak!
Börjar blogga igen,fick blogglust
Igår var det skolavslutningi , på morgonen var hela skolan och badade och sen när jag slutade kom Linnea och vi gjorde iording oss. Det är jätte skönt att det är sommarlov nu och om mindre än en vecka ska jag flyga till Gotland med Maya,Linnea,Sophie,Tova och en tjej som heter Therese och vi ska vara på Celines landställe i en vecka :D Ni får mycket bilder när jag kommer hem.
Efter skolavslutningen igår så drog jag och några och grillade SKITMYSIGT bara kärlek :D Minou slaggade hos mig sen.
Bilder från dagen igår.
lolzz
Hittade lite bilder från när jag var i london
Alla bilder är tagna från när jag var i London förutom den första med Cupcakesen som är från när jag fyllde år.
2 små detaljer som jag älskar i mitt rum
Har fler saker , kan ta kort när jag kommer hem <3
Första lektion Dans
Är på väg till skolan , har dans som första lektion ..
Såhär ser jag ut idag OBS! Jag har dans-kläder
Hur hade de tänkt att jag skulle komma ner till plattformen?
Haha orkar inte
Är så trött orkar inte blogga , ni får njuta av bilderna som är tagna idag istället
Dansat med eden i 2 timmar
Haft skitkul på dansen idag med EDENRISE ,myys är på g hem nu och ska ätaaaa är så jävlans hungrig ge mig en fking PIZZA
Bloggar mer när jag kommer hem ,puuus
Varit inne i stan
Var inne i stan med Julia T och Emma idag vi hade det skitmysigt ,köpte en skitsnygg bikini-underdel visar bild sen.
BILD PÅ EMMA OCH JULLAN
På g till skolan
Sitter och väntar på tuben och lyssnar på skönaste musiken, älskar vädret !!
U N D E R B A R T
Är skitglsd idag !! Här är min outfit & facelook ,bloggar mer senare..
NU KOMMER MIN TUB
